self-development, Yoga

Self-trust

I’ve had a wrist injury 10 years ago. It made me quit playing the violin and made me lose trust in my body. I didn’t even realize – only in hindsight – that this injury made me feel weak, that it made me think my body is not capable of things I didn’t even consider twice, before the injury. I remember avoiding putting weight on it, even avoiding using my left hand, if not absolutely necessary.
Even after I’ve recovered, that pattern stuck with me.
I’ve started practicing yoga a while after my injury and I’ve always avoided arm balances, handstands and everything that could drain my wrists. I always wanted to do crows and wheels, but only practiced half-heartedly. And I also realized, that I used this injury as an excuse. I was hiding behind it, for it is easier to say ‘my body doesn’t allow me to do this’, than ‘Hey, I’m new to this and I’m not good at it’ or even ‘I’m not new to this, but I’m not good at it’. I was fascinated by that insight, and of course a little bit ashamed of it as well.
And than there came a turning point, about half a year ago. Mid practice, I decided that I no longer wanted to be the victim of those patterns, of my past, of my thought-carousel. I allowed myself to be a beginner, to be not good at it, to fail and fall (over and over again).
And eventually over time, my arm-balancing practice became more steady, more balanced and I gained confidence.
Realizing the difference between what doesn’t serve my body and what is just thought patterns, took quite some practice, as this can be easily confused.
The closer I listened to what my body, my ego, my thoughts really told me, the easier it was to listen to what feels good and the better I got to know myself.
It felt like with the growing confidence, the strength came back into my wrists, into my body and by now I feel even ‘good enough’ to teach those Asanas.

Is there a thing, that you would like to do, but are too afraid of trying? Because you are not good enough in this or that, not strong enough, not tough enough, not adventurous enough, not educated enough, not intelligent enough? (I could go on with the the list of ‘not enough’s’ for longer). And of course the arm-balancing example is just one out of many situations in my life, where my thoughts keep tricking me into not believing in myself, but now that I’m aware of it, it is easier to decide against that harmful self-talk.
One thing is for sure – you will always find a reason not to do something.
But if you look the other way, you might as well find 10 reasons why it’s worth trying.

Movement, self-development

Tricky transition

I just attended a lovely Playshop by Sara Ticha (great Yogateacher and lovely, sweet soul) in Vienna. It was all about tricky transitions, and this could as well be the title for the chapter of my life, that I’m currently living in.
My life seems to be a constant chain of changes, chaotic, confusing and with a lot of adventure in it, while my friends slowly, but surely, start to settle down.
Watching my friends slow down often makes me question, wether I do something wrong, or at least, if I should try to “grow up”.
While my friends plan their weddings, houses and babies, I move to the the third “home” within a year, that I spent 5 months of abroad – so if you happen to need pro tips for moving -> hit me up! 😉
I am planning my 300 hr Yogateacher Training, while my friends think of where in the Caribbean their honeymoon should go to and I am about to start studying (first semester again, YAY!), while my friends graduate from master programs, have already had their doctorates or already got jobs in big corporate firm.

As you can see, there is a lot that separates me from others, that makes me “different”. Often I wish, that it would feel right for me to go in the direction everyone else seams to move towards, but it just doesn’t. And this feeling of separation, of being different makes extra vulnerable.

I am (still) learning to accept my authentic path, sometimes it works better, sometimes it doesn’t, but since I’ve incorporated more playfulness into my tricky transitions, either in my own Yogapractice or in life in general it all gets easier. I am more gentle with myself, more accepting and I approach myself with more loving kindness, either in my Pincha, or while moving places like a gypsy. So if you are at a point in life, where you can feel the tricky transitions coming in, try not to neglect them, because that means you stand in your own way of living an authentic life. Instead, just for the sake of trying, welcome it in like a kid, in a playful manner, with excitement instead of fear and without caring about anyone judging, especially that voice in your head.

Health, Mobility, Movement, self-development

Embody your Movement.

Maybe you’ve asked yourself what this mysterious thing is that I’m so passionate about, what it is that I call Embodied Movement.
Well, it could actually be anything and everything – and that’s the thing about it.
There are no rules, nobody that can tell you the right’s and wrong’s, do’s and don’ts. It’s neither dance, nor Yoga.
This will probably not be a satisfying answer for you.

So I will let you know, what it is and does to me.
I always wanted to be a dancer. Started Ballet at a young age and gave it up a few years after, I tried gymnastics – it wasn’t for me. I loved dancing in clubs, where nobody was looking, where I could move freely, but the atmosphere was toxic. During studying I came across pole dance, which I really liked, but it didn’t get to my core.
I have always been looking for more.
More than those rigid patterns that someone has invented, but that never really fitted for me. I came to the colclusion that dance is just not for me. That it’s something you have to be very flexible for, where being able to do splits is a necessity and where you need to be able to follow a choreography, which I would always forget. So i just gave it up. I stopped dancing. And I stopped listening to the urge, my body felt.

During my long Asian Yoga travel I was at this Extatic Dance, which I absolutely adored. Nobody was drinking, it was daylight, no talking, no phones, no nothing, but you and the rythmn of the beat. I completely let go and danced it out for hours.
When the music became quieter and people slowed down util they layed on the floor to relax in Savasana, I kept sitting and feeling.
And I saw this couple. They were dancing. Without choreography, a style I didn’t know, something modern and passionate and honest and raw and everything that filled my heart with all the love for dance that I had forgotten about for so long.
Tears kept running down my face and my heart was bursting.
This was the moment I knew I had found something profound.

This moment kept me digging and seeking for a danceform, a form of expression that allows me to be me. Suddenly all those amazing teachers came into my life, just at the right time.
I went to so so many dance and bodywork classes, I gained all the knowledge possible. About animal motions, solo dance, partner movement, self-trust, intuition, flexibility-strength-workout. acrobatic styles and much more.

But in the end, all the knowledge didn’t make any difference. Because all the knowledge was already inside of me, it just needed someone to guide me to that place inside of me, to that spring of joy and expression and passion. Watching the dance of those two people and finding my inner voice healed so many parts of me and allowed me to stand in my power.

If you silenced your inner desires a long time ago and didn’t dare to release them since, then take a slow step, allow yourself to open up. Find someone that guides you gently to your inner wisdom, it can be whoever and if it is me, it will fill me with so much gratitude to be part of your growth.

Mobility, Movement

Mobility

Too often, I see trainers, coaches, movement teachers of all kind (Yoga, Pilates,..) getting stuck in their used patters of moevement, stuck in their passive range of motiong, by repeating the same things over and over again.
By repetition of the same patterns, one will only see the same results.
Often people strengthen one muscle excessively, while they forget about the counterpart, which leads to problems in posture and can even result in chronic pain. (e.g. back and abs should be worked equally).
Same applies to active and passive stretches. It’s nice if you can pull so hard on your feet with your hands that you can make a ‘proper-looking’ forward fold (who even came up with how that should look like?!), but how about your joint flexibility and your stretch without you pulling hard on your bodyparts?

The ultimate goal of movement of any kind for me is to have fun, explore and get to know myself better, and most of all to keep my body healthy. So I don’t want to bend until it hurts, just for the sake of a good instagram picture, I don’t want to get into the deepest stretch of all students of yoga class just for the sake of my ego, and I for sure I don’t want to ruin my body, the home of my soul, just because someone told me how something has to look or feel like.
My body is different to yours, and your body is different to anyone elses. No one can tell you how a posture, a movement has to be done. Of course, you can get guidance and introduction to get a feeling for the bigger picture, to get some knowledge about staying safe during your movement practice and to support you on your journey to your movement, but don’t let anyone ever tell you to go deeper than you think, to stretch harder than you feel and to do movements your body tells you not to do, because they don’t feel right.

I invite you all to get explorative with yourself and to start moving a way you have never done before, to take movement classes you’ve never taken before and to encounter yourself in an unknown, new way, but always listen closely to what your body has to tell you and know your boundaries. (you will get better at it with practice ;))

If you are interested in this kind of explorative journey, feel free to join me in one of my ’embodied movement’ workshops all over Austria.
We will dance together, move like animals, have fun like kids and get to know ourselves in a different way, within a safe space of expedition.

First workshop – (Sunday) May 19th 10:00 – 13:00
Diefenbachgasse 54a, 1150 Vienna
Early bird 40,-

 

self-development

Changing of the seasons

As summer comes to an end and autumn slowly takes over the ship of natures life, so changes my personal life. The leafes slowly turn from green to red and brown and also the shades of my life shine in different colours than a few months, weeks, days or hours ago.
It’s a constant flow of “good” and “bad” changes, if one wants to label it. As life is a play of balance, there is always good in the bad and bad in the good.
Latley I had a lot of ups and downs and it felt like I started to lose control over the decisions made and someone else chose for me.
I decided to sit with myself and dive deep into myself and figuring out what I will make happen in the future and as I sat there solely, a deep freedom took me over and brought me back to my essence – which is pure light and lies in simply being. And there, every question I was asking, was already answered, inside myself. It lies all within us, but sometimes we need a little reminder, that we already have it all. 🙂

So I went away from my own insecurity and stepped into my goddess-power again. I got back my energy and saw the things clearly again. I choose to take action instead of letting someone else make the decisions for me.
And even if its a rough sea that I’m sailing through at the moment, I know that I and my surrounding will eventually change again, as winter is coming.
For me life always gets harder when I clinge to things, situations or people that are a part of my life at some point. Real freedom lies in letting go, in non-attachment and in knowing that there are so many more things to come in life.

Hopefully, when I’m mentally “walking through a dark and dusty valley” agian, I will remember those lines I wrote, when I was present in my strong and authentic self and I will read them and remember who and what I really am – pure light and love.

Health, Yoga

What Yoga is and why we all should start..

Translated from the Sanskrit, Yoga means union.
When practicing Yoga we unify our mind and body.

Yoga reduces stress by decreasing our Cortisol Level in the Body!
Especially in combination with meditation and breathing techniques, it affects the body and mind positively!
And as having a relaxed body and mind helps you to relax in general, also the quality of your sleep might very likely increase. So if you struggle from sleeping issues, then do 15 minutes of gentle Yoga just before going to bed.

Of course developing a Yoga routine will make your muscles and joints more flexible, while building strength, but it also helps you to find more balance (inside and outside). That’s the reason why most top athletes have started to add Yoga to their exercise routine. When you’re stuck at a certain level in your Sports routine, Yoga might be the complementary part of the puzzle, that has been missing – try it out!

Pranayama (the yogic breath) which is practiced while moving on the mat, will help you to reconnect to your breath. That might sound strange, but if you really think of it – how often do you bring awareness to your breath? That barely happens! Focusing and reconnecting to your breath will help you increase your vital capacity, which is especially beneficial for people with asthma or lung diseases.

Those are just some of the benefits, that our body can profit from by doing Yoga, so just grab a mat, and start practicing 🙂

(I’ll do another article, focusing on the mental benefits)

 

food, self-development, Yoga

How to stay sane?

Hunting after adventures is my big passion for sure, but what really matters in life is health and mental well-being. I only realized this, when I lacked those essentials, so I figured out, that prevention is the key for fullfilling my best life and chasing my dreams.

In my adolescence, when I just moved out of my parents house and into my new students life in Vienna., I had a lot of troubles with adapting to all the changes and that resulted in health issues. Not only did I get sick on a monthly basis, but I kind of got a depression and just felt completely lost and worthless. So i started digging deeper, to find the cause of the change in my personality and body.

I really got into traditional chinese Medicine (TCM), which helped me reconnect with myself again. At that time I changed my sleeping routine and my eating habits. I started my day with a warm (cooked) breakfast like soup, got rid of most milk products and cut sugar and alcohol out for some time and I went to bed and got up at the same time every day. I quickly realised, that those 2 factors had such a huge impact on my well-being and so I found a way to integrate them into my day-to-day life.

At About the same time I started doing Yoga, which is now one of my professions and my biggest passion. I first got into it, because I wanted to have an athletic body, but the more I practiced, the more I realised, that yoga is so much more than just downdog and handstands.
I finally felt my Body again, I didn’t even know, that I havent felt it properly for years. All the breath work combined with really turning inwards and just being changed my view on all the things on the outside, and I reconsidered the presence and importance of a lot of things and people in my life. I got rid of everything/one that didn’t serve me anymore and kept me from growing and being my true self.

The latest discovery I made sounds really simple, but has so much power.
TAKE IT EASY. Stop stressing About Things, that are not in your power to change, and focus on the things, that you can actually change. Find trust in the universe (or however you like to call the higher power), and most important trust yourself again, as everything already is to be found within you.

 

Let’s raise #healthawareness for ourselves and for supporting the people that suffer from a lack of health.