Movement, self-development

Tricky transition

I just attended a lovely Playshop by Sara Ticha (great Yogateacher and lovely, sweet soul) in Vienna. It was all about tricky transitions, and this could as well be the title for the chapter of my life, that I’m currently living in.
My life seems to be a constant chain of changes, chaotic, confusing and with a lot of adventure in it, while my friends slowly, but surely, start to settle down.
Watching my friends slow down often makes me question, wether I do something wrong, or at least, if I should try to “grow up”.
While my friends plan their weddings, houses and babies, I move to the the third “home” within a year, that I spent 5 months of abroad – so if you happen to need pro tips for moving -> hit me up! 😉
I am planning my 300 hr Yogateacher Training, while my friends think of where in the Caribbean their honeymoon should go to and I am about to start studying (first semester again, YAY!), while my friends graduate from master programs, have already had their doctorates or already got jobs in big corporate firm.

As you can see, there is a lot that separates me from others, that makes me “different”. Often I wish, that it would feel right for me to go in the direction everyone else seams to move towards, but it just doesn’t. And this feeling of separation, of being different makes extra vulnerable.

I am (still) learning to accept my authentic path, sometimes it works better, sometimes it doesn’t, but since I’ve incorporated more playfulness into my tricky transitions, either in my own Yogapractice or in life in general it all gets easier. I am more gentle with myself, more accepting and I approach myself with more loving kindness, either in my Pincha, or while moving places like a gypsy. So if you are at a point in life, where you can feel the tricky transitions coming in, try not to neglect them, because that means you stand in your own way of living an authentic life. Instead, just for the sake of trying, welcome it in like a kid, in a playful manner, with excitement instead of fear and without caring about anyone judging, especially that voice in your head.

Health, self-development

Self talk

Take a few moments and check in with yourself.
How did you treat yourself today? On the outside, as well as on the inside.

Did you give your body some breaks, some rest, where it could regain the energy spent during a busy day. What did you do for your body to stay healthy and feel good?
Some movement, a bubble bath or a nice foot massage?

As important as taking care of our body, is taking care of our inside, our mental health, our heart and soul. What is it you did do for your inside? Meditation, a walk in nature, some reading?

How is your perception of other people, compared to how you see yourself?
Probably you are way harder on yourself than you are on other people.
What is it you think of yourself, how do you talk to yourself.
Try to reflect on that for a day, write down how you speak about yourself. Phrases like “silly me” or “sorry, I am an idiot” are more common than you might think. Write the thoughts and phrases down to remember and read through it at the end of the day. ALERT – You might be shocked.
When I first tried that I was absolutely outraged by myself. There was not much loving kindness involved  in my self-talks or let’s even call it self-judgement, and oh my, what a strict judge I was.
And this made me become the prisoner of my own thought punishments.
For my own standards I was never good enough, fast enough or worthy enough. What stunned me most, was that I actually thought I had a good opinion on myself until I looked closely. The truth I found there left me speechless and made me reflect on what it was that I judged so harshly in my behavior, in my looks, in my profession, in my being.

Writing down my self-talk and the thoughts I had about myself really opened my eyes. I still do that “exercise” from time to time to check-in again and to work on my self-love-ability.

If you feel like you could need a little more self-love from time to time, I can warmly recommend looking on the inside as closely as caring for the outside. I know it might not feel as good as a spa day at first, it might feel more like work, but I promise you, when the work is done, you will be left with the warmest feeling for yourself.

Movement

Movement is everything.

Everything is movement. And movement is everything.
With the new seasons, there come new people, new lovers, new passions, new hair colors, new movements and a new self.
It’s all ever changing, as it keeps on moving.
Sometimes swaying from side to side, sometimes jumping from A to B and sometimes taking a step back.
And even in the darkest of times, when you think your feet have forgotten how to dance to the beat, that your ears can’t hear the melody anymore, your heart still feels the subtile tones and beats along the rythmn.
So dare to trust in your self, in your rythmn, in your movement.
Let it guide you through the journey of life. Let yourself be moved to tears, to dance, to action. And be the person who gives others the freedom to move in their unique way.
And when the day comes, that your heart makes its last move, know that your movement through life has forever had an impact on others’ movements, and therefore we are all eternally living forth in the movement of the people we have touched and of the soil we have walked on, for it will will forever remember the way we moved through life.

Travel

The call of the gypsy soul

“If we were meant to live in one place, we would grow roots”. That saying appeared so appropriate to me, like the absolute truth. Still, I couldn’t find the courage it to live my life according to it. At the age of 20 I chose the conservative way of studying law and working for an attorney, but it just never felt as if this life was meant for me.

It took me a few years to reach the Point of complete Desperation, until I realized that I was living someone elses dream and that this was not my purpose. Out of that Impulse I quit everything from one day to the next, sold my furniture, moved out of town and never regretted it ever since.

I still haven’t figured out where or what my final destination is, but I’m curious about the journey, with all it’s ups and downs and about getting to know myself better every single day.