Movement, self-development

Tricky transition

I just attended a lovely Playshop by Sara Ticha (great Yogateacher and lovely, sweet soul) in Vienna. It was all about tricky transitions, and this could as well be the title for the chapter of my life, that I’m currently living in.
My life seems to be a constant chain of changes, chaotic, confusing and with a lot of adventure in it, while my friends slowly, but surely, start to settle down.
Watching my friends slow down often makes me question, wether I do something wrong, or at least, if I should try to “grow up”.
While my friends plan their weddings, houses and babies, I move to the the third “home” within a year, that I spent 5 months of abroad – so if you happen to need pro tips for moving -> hit me up! 😉
I am planning my 300 hr Yogateacher Training, while my friends think of where in the Caribbean their honeymoon should go to and I am about to start studying (first semester again, YAY!), while my friends graduate from master programs, have already had their doctorates or already got jobs in big corporate firm.

As you can see, there is a lot that separates me from others, that makes me “different”. Often I wish, that it would feel right for me to go in the direction everyone else seams to move towards, but it just doesn’t. And this feeling of separation, of being different makes extra vulnerable.

I am (still) learning to accept my authentic path, sometimes it works better, sometimes it doesn’t, but since I’ve incorporated more playfulness into my tricky transitions, either in my own Yogapractice or in life in general it all gets easier. I am more gentle with myself, more accepting and I approach myself with more loving kindness, either in my Pincha, or while moving places like a gypsy. So if you are at a point in life, where you can feel the tricky transitions coming in, try not to neglect them, because that means you stand in your own way of living an authentic life. Instead, just for the sake of trying, welcome it in like a kid, in a playful manner, with excitement instead of fear and without caring about anyone judging, especially that voice in your head.

self-development

Changing of the seasons

As summer comes to an end and autumn slowly takes over the ship of natures life, so changes my personal life. The leafes slowly turn from green to red and brown and also the shades of my life shine in different colours than a few months, weeks, days or hours ago.
It’s a constant flow of “good” and “bad” changes, if one wants to label it. As life is a play of balance, there is always good in the bad and bad in the good.
Latley I had a lot of ups and downs and it felt like I started to lose control over the decisions made and someone else chose for me.
I decided to sit with myself and dive deep into myself and figuring out what I will make happen in the future and as I sat there solely, a deep freedom took me over and brought me back to my essence – which is pure light and lies in simply being. And there, every question I was asking, was already answered, inside myself. It lies all within us, but sometimes we need a little reminder, that we already have it all. 🙂

So I went away from my own insecurity and stepped into my goddess-power again. I got back my energy and saw the things clearly again. I choose to take action instead of letting someone else make the decisions for me.
And even if its a rough sea that I’m sailing through at the moment, I know that I and my surrounding will eventually change again, as winter is coming.
For me life always gets harder when I clinge to things, situations or people that are a part of my life at some point. Real freedom lies in letting go, in non-attachment and in knowing that there are so many more things to come in life.

Hopefully, when I’m mentally “walking through a dark and dusty valley” agian, I will remember those lines I wrote, when I was present in my strong and authentic self and I will read them and remember who and what I really am – pure light and love.