Health, self-development

Naming and shaming

Either, you’re too fat and don’t have any control over your life, or you are too skinny or fit and are arrogant as you use so much time for your looks.
Either you’re eating meat and don’t give shit about animals, slaughtering and what you put inside your body, or you are vegan and a hippie who has no idea about real life.
Either you are a relationship type, who just can’t stand being by him/herself, or you are single, which means you have a bad personality, bad looks or even both.
Either you are a mom who stays at home, which means you gave up your life, or you start working again, which means you don’t care about your kids and don’t deserve any respect.
Either you are a dad who stays at home, which means you are under your wife’s thumb, or you don’t stay at home, which makes you a conservative snob, who doesn’t know his kids.

As you can see, no matter what you do, you definitely do it wrong.
You can never be good enough, your decisions can never be the right ones and generally your life is a complete disaster according to society and the ‘shamers’.

But you know what, if you act according to your beliefs, I’m proud of you.
I’m proud of every person who tries to eat less meat, I’m proud of everyone who buys consciously and informs themselves, I’m proud of the single mom who has to work, of the dad that provides for the family, of the singles, who love their freedom, of the chubby girls and boys who don’t define themselves over their looks.
I am not proud of people, who make others feel uncomfortable, unloved, unworthy! I’m not proud of vegans shaming vegetarians for eating eggs and I’m not proud of flexitarians shaming vegans for following their strict rules. I’m ashamed for women making other women feel small for working or not working, for making the decisions to have kids or not.
The thing is – IT IS NOT YOUR DECISION TO MAKE.
You can only live your best life, you cannot control someone else’s life.
On the other hand it means, that instead of shaming others, take responsibility for your actions and choices and stand up for it. That’s not easy either, but it’s 100% in your hands.

So, if you ever get shamed for who you are, or what you do, keep in mind, that the person shaming you, probably doesn’t have her/his life under control and it’s way easier for them to point their finger at you. Don’t take it personally. It actually means, you did something right, you triggered something in them. You are just their mirror, nothing more, nothing less.
You can go on and live your life, don’t waste your energy on people who make you feel bad, bring your focus on the life you want to create, work your way towards it and stand up for yourself.

You only have this life.
It is your life.
It’s your decisions.
It’s your choice to make. Be wise. Live in peace.

Health, Mobility, Movement, self-development

Embody your Movement.

Maybe you’ve asked yourself what this mysterious thing is that I’m so passionate about, what it is that I call Embodied Movement.
Well, it could actually be anything and everything – and that’s the thing about it.
There are no rules, nobody that can tell you the right’s and wrong’s, do’s and don’ts. It’s neither dance, nor Yoga.
This will probably not be a satisfying answer for you.

So I will let you know, what it is and does to me.
I always wanted to be a dancer. Started Ballet at a young age and gave it up a few years after, I tried gymnastics – it wasn’t for me. I loved dancing in clubs, where nobody was looking, where I could move freely, but the atmosphere was toxic. During studying I came across pole dance, which I really liked, but it didn’t get to my core.
I have always been looking for more.
More than those rigid patterns that someone has invented, but that never really fitted for me. I came to the colclusion that dance is just not for me. That it’s something you have to be very flexible for, where being able to do splits is a necessity and where you need to be able to follow a choreography, which I would always forget. So i just gave it up. I stopped dancing. And I stopped listening to the urge, my body felt.

During my long Asian Yoga travel I was at this Extatic Dance, which I absolutely adored. Nobody was drinking, it was daylight, no talking, no phones, no nothing, but you and the rythmn of the beat. I completely let go and danced it out for hours.
When the music became quieter and people slowed down util they layed on the floor to relax in Savasana, I kept sitting and feeling.
And I saw this couple. They were dancing. Without choreography, a style I didn’t know, something modern and passionate and honest and raw and everything that filled my heart with all the love for dance that I had forgotten about for so long.
Tears kept running down my face and my heart was bursting.
This was the moment I knew I had found something profound.

This moment kept me digging and seeking for a danceform, a form of expression that allows me to be me. Suddenly all those amazing teachers came into my life, just at the right time.
I went to so so many dance and bodywork classes, I gained all the knowledge possible. About animal motions, solo dance, partner movement, self-trust, intuition, flexibility-strength-workout. acrobatic styles and much more.

But in the end, all the knowledge didn’t make any difference. Because all the knowledge was already inside of me, it just needed someone to guide me to that place inside of me, to that spring of joy and expression and passion. Watching the dance of those two people and finding my inner voice healed so many parts of me and allowed me to stand in my power.

If you silenced your inner desires a long time ago and didn’t dare to release them since, then take a slow step, allow yourself to open up. Find someone that guides you gently to your inner wisdom, it can be whoever and if it is me, it will fill me with so much gratitude to be part of your growth.

Health, Movement, self-development, Yoga

About movement

As babies our biggest desire is to move, to explore, to experience.
We want to be able to move in our own, towards every possible direction.
We explore our range of motion without judgment, or a how-it-should-be mentality, which gives us freedom to expand peacefully.
But at some point we lose this ability to be non-judgemental, to be at ease with ourselves, and that’s where stagnation happens. Our movement turns linear and by time we lose more and more of our range of motion, we waste it away.
The good thing is, that it’s never too late to regain it. You can start now. There will be no better time than this exact present moment.
Move in a way you haven’t moved for a long time, explore your body, experience yourself. And be ready to get surprised by what you are capable of, when you allow yourself to let go of any expectation.
You might not look like a professional dancer, maybe you look like a turtle that lies on it’s back, but you know what, it absolutely doesn’t matter, as long as you can feel the freedom of movement, the freedom of simplicity and authenticity.
And when you’ve practiced for long enough, at one point you might be able to take that rawness, that genuineness away from movement and even integratet it into your daily life, your habits and all the layers of yourself.
This is where movement can lead you.
To a more authentic life.
To a more authentic Self.

self-development

Time

It’s a strange thing. What is it that determines the rhythm to our routine. What is it that tells us to wake up and go to bed. What is it that tells us we ought to eat, study or take time for our family dinner?
It’s the constant ticking of a clock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

There are days when it feels like time doesn’t go by and where we want everything to be faster. More consumption, more excitement, more, more, more.
There are days when we feel like we’re running out of time. Like time was sand and it gushes through our hands, no matter how tight we try to hold it together.
And there are moments when time stands still when the clock stops to tick for a bit, while we watch the most beautiful sunset, or kiss the person we love.

Time is a strange thing.
But the question is never about the clock, the question is always about our perception. We can not influence time going by, we can just try to be in the exact moment and appreciate it for it will never come back. The only thing that stays with us forever is the memory of the past, often romanticized, often misty-eyed.
So lets all just take a moment of silence, a moment of pure being, a moment of perfection, where we worship ourselves, our surrounding and the exact situation we’re in. Feel which emotions are arising, when you’re really there, without any goal or attempt to be anywhere else. Don’t wait for the perfect moment to catch that freedom of simply being by accident, create that moment for yourself and manifest that feeling of peace and love deep down in your heart.

self-development

Changing of the seasons

As summer comes to an end and autumn slowly takes over the ship of natures life, so changes my personal life. The leafes slowly turn from green to red and brown and also the shades of my life shine in different colours than a few months, weeks, days or hours ago.
It’s a constant flow of “good” and “bad” changes, if one wants to label it. As life is a play of balance, there is always good in the bad and bad in the good.
Latley I had a lot of ups and downs and it felt like I started to lose control over the decisions made and someone else chose for me.
I decided to sit with myself and dive deep into myself and figuring out what I will make happen in the future and as I sat there solely, a deep freedom took me over and brought me back to my essence – which is pure light and lies in simply being. And there, every question I was asking, was already answered, inside myself. It lies all within us, but sometimes we need a little reminder, that we already have it all. 🙂

So I went away from my own insecurity and stepped into my goddess-power again. I got back my energy and saw the things clearly again. I choose to take action instead of letting someone else make the decisions for me.
And even if its a rough sea that I’m sailing through at the moment, I know that I and my surrounding will eventually change again, as winter is coming.
For me life always gets harder when I clinge to things, situations or people that are a part of my life at some point. Real freedom lies in letting go, in non-attachment and in knowing that there are so many more things to come in life.

Hopefully, when I’m mentally “walking through a dark and dusty valley” agian, I will remember those lines I wrote, when I was present in my strong and authentic self and I will read them and remember who and what I really am – pure light and love.

self-development

Of beginnings and endings

When was your last time, doing something for the first time?
And when was your first time, doing something for the last time?

The thing with beginnings and endings is that often we don’t even recognise our first times and most certainly we don’t know that our last times are for good. Usually this is not our decision to make, which is why we often miss out on those Special moments.
Of course there are those big milestones in life, one experiences with full awareness, like walking to school for the last time as a student, or having the first ever ride with the car you payed out-of-pocket, but after a few years even those breath taking moments slowly, but surely fade away from our memory. What remains is the sensation of the moment, the emotions we link to it. Those moments are unique and they shall never come back to us, what’s left for us is the sentiment.

The point is that we only have a certain amount of first times in our life and as the years go by, so do the first times. Suddenly we realise that we’ve already experienced most of our first times, without even noticing. We went past that point and didn’t embrace those special events enough that interrupt our day-to-day routine. So there is just that big stone of definite endings ahead of us and we can’t do anything to stop it from rolling towards us.

The good news is, it is in our hands how many more first times there will be in our life and how we will experience them. Let’s start by cherishing every moment a little more, all the first and last times and all in-betweens. Now is the perfect time to start with a more conscious life, where we’re not missing out on any of those special moment, where we give them more meaning and soul and fill them with as much life as possible.

food, self-development, Yoga

How to stay sane?

Hunting after adventures is my big passion for sure, but what really matters in life is health and mental well-being. I only realized this, when I lacked those essentials, so I figured out, that prevention is the key for fullfilling my best life and chasing my dreams.

In my adolescence, when I just moved out of my parents house and into my new students life in Vienna., I had a lot of troubles with adapting to all the changes and that resulted in health issues. Not only did I get sick on a monthly basis, but I kind of got a depression and just felt completely lost and worthless. So i started digging deeper, to find the cause of the change in my personality and body.

I really got into traditional chinese Medicine (TCM), which helped me reconnect with myself again. At that time I changed my sleeping routine and my eating habits. I started my day with a warm (cooked) breakfast like soup, got rid of most milk products and cut sugar and alcohol out for some time and I went to bed and got up at the same time every day. I quickly realised, that those 2 factors had such a huge impact on my well-being and so I found a way to integrate them into my day-to-day life.

At About the same time I started doing Yoga, which is now one of my professions and my biggest passion. I first got into it, because I wanted to have an athletic body, but the more I practiced, the more I realised, that yoga is so much more than just downdog and handstands.
I finally felt my Body again, I didn’t even know, that I havent felt it properly for years. All the breath work combined with really turning inwards and just being changed my view on all the things on the outside, and I reconsidered the presence and importance of a lot of things and people in my life. I got rid of everything/one that didn’t serve me anymore and kept me from growing and being my true self.

The latest discovery I made sounds really simple, but has so much power.
TAKE IT EASY. Stop stressing About Things, that are not in your power to change, and focus on the things, that you can actually change. Find trust in the universe (or however you like to call the higher power), and most important trust yourself again, as everything already is to be found within you.

 

Let’s raise #healthawareness for ourselves and for supporting the people that suffer from a lack of health.