Movement, self-development

Tricky transition

I just attended a lovely Playshop by Sara Ticha (great Yogateacher and lovely, sweet soul) in Vienna. It was all about tricky transitions, and this could as well be the title for the chapter of my life, that I’m currently living in.
My life seems to be a constant chain of changes, chaotic, confusing and with a lot of adventure in it, while my friends slowly, but surely, start to settle down.
Watching my friends slow down often makes me question, wether I do something wrong, or at least, if I should try to “grow up”.
While my friends plan their weddings, houses and babies, I move to the the third “home” within a year, that I spent 5 months of abroad – so if you happen to need pro tips for moving -> hit me up! 😉
I am planning my 300 hr Yogateacher Training, while my friends think of where in the Caribbean their honeymoon should go to and I am about to start studying (first semester again, YAY!), while my friends graduate from master programs, have already had their doctorates or already got jobs in big corporate firm.

As you can see, there is a lot that separates me from others, that makes me “different”. Often I wish, that it would feel right for me to go in the direction everyone else seams to move towards, but it just doesn’t. And this feeling of separation, of being different makes extra vulnerable.

I am (still) learning to accept my authentic path, sometimes it works better, sometimes it doesn’t, but since I’ve incorporated more playfulness into my tricky transitions, either in my own Yogapractice or in life in general it all gets easier. I am more gentle with myself, more accepting and I approach myself with more loving kindness, either in my Pincha, or while moving places like a gypsy. So if you are at a point in life, where you can feel the tricky transitions coming in, try not to neglect them, because that means you stand in your own way of living an authentic life. Instead, just for the sake of trying, welcome it in like a kid, in a playful manner, with excitement instead of fear and without caring about anyone judging, especially that voice in your head.

Health, Mobility, Movement, self-development

Embody your Movement.

Maybe you’ve asked yourself what this mysterious thing is that I’m so passionate about, what it is that I call Embodied Movement.
Well, it could actually be anything and everything – and that’s the thing about it.
There are no rules, nobody that can tell you the right’s and wrong’s, do’s and don’ts. It’s neither dance, nor Yoga.
This will probably not be a satisfying answer for you.

So I will let you know, what it is and does to me.
I always wanted to be a dancer. Started Ballet at a young age and gave it up a few years after, I tried gymnastics – it wasn’t for me. I loved dancing in clubs, where nobody was looking, where I could move freely, but the atmosphere was toxic. During studying I came across pole dance, which I really liked, but it didn’t get to my core.
I have always been looking for more.
More than those rigid patterns that someone has invented, but that never really fitted for me. I came to the colclusion that dance is just not for me. That it’s something you have to be very flexible for, where being able to do splits is a necessity and where you need to be able to follow a choreography, which I would always forget. So i just gave it up. I stopped dancing. And I stopped listening to the urge, my body felt.

During my long Asian Yoga travel I was at this Extatic Dance, which I absolutely adored. Nobody was drinking, it was daylight, no talking, no phones, no nothing, but you and the rythmn of the beat. I completely let go and danced it out for hours.
When the music became quieter and people slowed down util they layed on the floor to relax in Savasana, I kept sitting and feeling.
And I saw this couple. They were dancing. Without choreography, a style I didn’t know, something modern and passionate and honest and raw and everything that filled my heart with all the love for dance that I had forgotten about for so long.
Tears kept running down my face and my heart was bursting.
This was the moment I knew I had found something profound.

This moment kept me digging and seeking for a danceform, a form of expression that allows me to be me. Suddenly all those amazing teachers came into my life, just at the right time.
I went to so so many dance and bodywork classes, I gained all the knowledge possible. About animal motions, solo dance, partner movement, self-trust, intuition, flexibility-strength-workout. acrobatic styles and much more.

But in the end, all the knowledge didn’t make any difference. Because all the knowledge was already inside of me, it just needed someone to guide me to that place inside of me, to that spring of joy and expression and passion. Watching the dance of those two people and finding my inner voice healed so many parts of me and allowed me to stand in my power.

If you silenced your inner desires a long time ago and didn’t dare to release them since, then take a slow step, allow yourself to open up. Find someone that guides you gently to your inner wisdom, it can be whoever and if it is me, it will fill me with so much gratitude to be part of your growth.

Mobility, Movement

Mobility

Too often, I see trainers, coaches, movement teachers of all kind (Yoga, Pilates,..) getting stuck in their used patters of moevement, stuck in their passive range of motiong, by repeating the same things over and over again.
By repetition of the same patterns, one will only see the same results.
Often people strengthen one muscle excessively, while they forget about the counterpart, which leads to problems in posture and can even result in chronic pain. (e.g. back and abs should be worked equally).
Same applies to active and passive stretches. It’s nice if you can pull so hard on your feet with your hands that you can make a ‘proper-looking’ forward fold (who even came up with how that should look like?!), but how about your joint flexibility and your stretch without you pulling hard on your bodyparts?

The ultimate goal of movement of any kind for me is to have fun, explore and get to know myself better, and most of all to keep my body healthy. So I don’t want to bend until it hurts, just for the sake of a good instagram picture, I don’t want to get into the deepest stretch of all students of yoga class just for the sake of my ego, and I for sure I don’t want to ruin my body, the home of my soul, just because someone told me how something has to look or feel like.
My body is different to yours, and your body is different to anyone elses. No one can tell you how a posture, a movement has to be done. Of course, you can get guidance and introduction to get a feeling for the bigger picture, to get some knowledge about staying safe during your movement practice and to support you on your journey to your movement, but don’t let anyone ever tell you to go deeper than you think, to stretch harder than you feel and to do movements your body tells you not to do, because they don’t feel right.

I invite you all to get explorative with yourself and to start moving a way you have never done before, to take movement classes you’ve never taken before and to encounter yourself in an unknown, new way, but always listen closely to what your body has to tell you and know your boundaries. (you will get better at it with practice ;))

If you are interested in this kind of explorative journey, feel free to join me in one of my ’embodied movement’ workshops all over Austria.
We will dance together, move like animals, have fun like kids and get to know ourselves in a different way, within a safe space of expedition.

First workshop – (Sunday) May 19th 10:00 – 13:00
Diefenbachgasse 54a, 1150 Vienna
Early bird 40,-

 

Health, Movement, self-development, Yoga

About movement

As babies our biggest desire is to move, to explore, to experience.
We want to be able to move in our own, towards every possible direction.
We explore our range of motion without judgment, or a how-it-should-be mentality, which gives us freedom to expand peacefully.
But at some point we lose this ability to be non-judgemental, to be at ease with ourselves, and that’s where stagnation happens. Our movement turns linear and by time we lose more and more of our range of motion, we waste it away.
The good thing is, that it’s never too late to regain it. You can start now. There will be no better time than this exact present moment.
Move in a way you haven’t moved for a long time, explore your body, experience yourself. And be ready to get surprised by what you are capable of, when you allow yourself to let go of any expectation.
You might not look like a professional dancer, maybe you look like a turtle that lies on it’s back, but you know what, it absolutely doesn’t matter, as long as you can feel the freedom of movement, the freedom of simplicity and authenticity.
And when you’ve practiced for long enough, at one point you might be able to take that rawness, that genuineness away from movement and even integratet it into your daily life, your habits and all the layers of yourself.
This is where movement can lead you.
To a more authentic life.
To a more authentic Self.

Movement

Movement is everything.

Everything is movement. And movement is everything.
With the new seasons, there come new people, new lovers, new passions, new hair colors, new movements and a new self.
It’s all ever changing, as it keeps on moving.
Sometimes swaying from side to side, sometimes jumping from A to B and sometimes taking a step back.
And even in the darkest of times, when you think your feet have forgotten how to dance to the beat, that your ears can’t hear the melody anymore, your heart still feels the subtile tones and beats along the rythmn.
So dare to trust in your self, in your rythmn, in your movement.
Let it guide you through the journey of life. Let yourself be moved to tears, to dance, to action. And be the person who gives others the freedom to move in their unique way.
And when the day comes, that your heart makes its last move, know that your movement through life has forever had an impact on others’ movements, and therefore we are all eternally living forth in the movement of the people we have touched and of the soil we have walked on, for it will will forever remember the way we moved through life.